Chap. 42 Talking to Ron
Hermione awoke that morning restless. She still had all her classes to attend to, and still talk to Ron that day. She didn't feel well at all. She was starting to rethink that late night salmon and tea. She ran into her bathroom and sat over the toliet. She began spewing into it. Ginny ran in hearing her.
'What's wrong Hermione?!'
In between throwing up Hermione said,
'That salmon and tea isn't sitting too well. I think I have stomach flu, I haven't been feeling too well at all.'
'Well, just eat light. You should go to Pomfrey to get some thing to help your stomach.'
'I will later this week. I have lots to do today.' Hermione said standing back up.
She flushed the toilet and brushed her teeth. She washed her face and got ready for the day. She was almost ready to go off to classes, but first she started a quick note to Draco.
Dear Draco,
You'll never believe what Miss Carleigh and Snape were talking to me about. They were talking to me about 'young love'. Do you think they had a 'thing'? Wouldn't that be weird? Well, i'm off to talk to Ron today, wish me luck, I can't have us hating each other forever. I'll be back to tell you about it...
She then stopped and decided to finish it later that day.
She walked down to her classes.
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'Miss Granger? Can you please tell me which two countries joined against the Imperious Curse?' Miss Carleigh asked smiling.
It was Hermione's last class of the day. Hermione's face brightened. She was glad she went to Miss Carleigh for help last night.
'Ireland and England.'
'Excellent.' Miss Carleigh nodded, 'Class dismissed. No homework.'
Hermione sighed relief. She was thankful for this.
She walked out with Ginny.
'So have you talked to Ron yet?'
'God no.' Hermione said, 'I'm sorta trying to postpone it. I know I have to do it today, but i'm so scared.'
'Don't be. How's your stomach?'
'Good. I haven't eaten alot so I feel okay.'
As they walked up the stairs they saw Ron on another staircase going to the boy's dormitories.
'There he is.' Ginny said.
'I don't know.'
'I'll go too. I'll hang with Harry as you talk to Ron.'
'Alright.'
The girls went onto the staircase Ron just got off of.
They went to the boys hall.
Dean walked by.
'Hey girls. You two aren't supposed to be here.' he said a little surprised by them.
'Can we talk to Harry and Ron?'
'I don't care. I'm just saying. Go ahead.' he laughed.
They smiled and went in.
Ron and Harry were setting up wizard's chest.
'Hey girls.' Harry smiled.
Ron turned to look he saw Hermione and it looked as if his face brightened up for a bit, then soured.
'Hey Harry. Hey Ron.' Hermione said timidly.
'C'mon Harry, let's go sit in your room.' Ginny said grabbing his hand.
'Okay.' Harry said happily.
'Umm...mate?' Ron asked angrily to Harry.
'Yeah?'
'Keep your clothes on.' Ron demanded.
'No problem.' Harry smiled.
Ginny smiled at Ron and her and Harry shut the door.
'Can I sit down?' Hermione asked.
'Sure.' he replied.
He continued to set up the game.
She was silent.
'What do you want, Hermione?' Ron finally asked breaking the peace.
'How are you doing?'
'Fine. You?'
'Okay, I think I have the stomach flu, but i'm feeling okay now.'
Hermione got up from the couch and walked over to where Ron was setting up the board. She sat down in the opposite chair.
'Ron, you and Harry were my best friends. Then Draco came...'
'Do we have to talk about him?'
'Yes.'
He sighed and stopped messing around with the pieces.
'Ron, Draco came and I fell in love, but that doesn't mean I still don't need my best friends.' she said, 'Harry has accepted it. Draco told me to just brush past your feelings and attitude toward us, but I can't. There's something in me, no matter how much I try to hide it, that needs your approval. It hurts me that I can't talk to you anymore.'
'You can talk to me.' 'Not with Draco near me though. He's my fiancé, Ron, he's going to be by me often and I can't just drop him or you when I want to talk to the other person.'
Hermione started to get teary eyed. She continued.
'Ron, I love you, I want you to be my friend again. I need you to be there for me, like Harry and Ginny. I miss you, why can't you just be happy for me? Draco makes me happy! I know you worry, but don't. He loves me, and i'm happy.'
Ron shook his head and looked down.
He didn't talk.
'Ron! Don't ignore me!' she cried.
He stood up quickly and walked away from her.
'Why do you have to do this?' he asked.
'Do what??'
'Come here, try to fix things, act like it can all be okay?? You have to be so perfect, all the time, don't you? Why do you have to do this to me??'
'Ron, I don't understand..' she said crying.
'Hermione, I don't hate Malfoy. I don't hate you. I don't hate that you are happy.'
'Then what's wrong, Ron?'
'I hate the fact that it wasn't me.'
Hermione's face paled.
'What are you saying?' she asked nervously.
'I know we went out for awhile and then broke up. It was okay. But there was always a part of me that thought that if there was anyone who would make you happy, it would be me. Not Draco Malfoy. I didn't know if it would be this year or what, but I thought I was the person who would make you happy, Hermione. I'm sorry. That's why I have been so harsh to you and Malfoy. I've just been jealous.'
Hermione was stunned.
'I'm sorry, Hermione, I shouldn't have told you.' Ron said shakily.
'What about Lavender?' she asked. After she said the words she wished she hadn't.
'I really like Lavender.'
'How can you when you've felt like this?'
'I like Lavender, but, as selfish as it sounds, she was kind of just an "appetizer" while I waited for you. I know, I know that sounds horrible. Then Malfoy came along.'
'I can't believe you, Ron! How did you keep this to yourself? Why the hell did you not tell me? What in the world makes you think you can do this to Lavender? She really likes you Ron! I'm sorry you felt this way for me, but you didn't tel anyone of your feelings, and you sure in hell didn't tell me. I love you, Ron, I do, but never more than my best friend. I hope we can brush pass our differences and become friends again.'
Ron stood against the wall and then slid into a sitting position. Hermione knelt in front of him and held his hands.
'Ron, please. You don't love me. You love the idea of me.'
'I do love you.'
'As friends.' she replied, 'Right?'
He nodded, but he didn't believe it and neither did she, but she took it.
'Good. Now stand up and give me a hug.' she smiled.
He stood up and put his arms around her.
Harry and Ginny came out interrupting Ron and Hermione's embrace.
'Good. Friends again?' Harry asked.
Hermione looked up at Ron, then back at Harry and nodded.
'Well, Hermione and I should be getting back to our rooms.' Ginny said.
'Yeah. Good night guys.' Hermione said.
Ginny kissed Harry and headed out the door. Hermione followed.
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Hermione continued to write Draco's letter.
...Alright, I just got back from talking to Ron. Don't be mad. Ron still loved him. It made him upset that you made me happy and not him, but don't worry, I explained that he shouldn't hold it against us and we decided to stay friends, obviously. I miss you. Hurry back. I love you.
Hermione xoxo
Hermione grabbed a coat to bring her letter down to the Owlery, but just then Draco's owl flew in.
'Perfect timing.' Hermione smiled.
She grabbed the note.
Dear Hermione, Harry is head boy? Oh...fabulous. Yeah, we can have a study time or whatever if you think i'll need it. I don't think I will, but whatever makes you happy. You're sick still? Stomach flu should only last a day or two, I hope it's nothing more serious. Go to Pomfrey. I can't wait to get back and snog the shit out of you. I miss you too.
Love Draco
Hermione smiled and added something to her letter to him.
P.S. I'm seeing Madame Pomfrey Friday, don't worry. See you then.
She then attached her note to the owl and let it go.
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